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Wed, 22 Nov 2006 07:41:26 GMT

I met someone named Aya, and she knows X, or one of the future ones that comes to the Nexus. We talked for a while about him and about being fiction in other universes. She's nice, and I hope I see her again.

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 10:25:20 GMT

I had a bake sale in the Nexus. At least it's something I can do to help out. Maybe next time I should have a few recepie booklets as well.

I saw the other Plant in the Nexus. He's really confused because they're going to reactivate some of their Epsilons. I think he's scared. I tried talking to him, but I don't know if it helped.

Jen's missing. Rock and I helped put up flyers in our universe, in case the person responsible used any of the portals in the Hub. I really hope she's found soon.

I returned the gun Proto loaned me. He's not faking being dead any more.

I also saw Mew, the pink floating kittenlike creature that Kalinka mentioned. She really is adorable, and Capri liked playing with her.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 14:15:41 GMT

I went to the Nexus. One of Rock's alternates had been turned into a fox, just like Star and Gemini were 'lol'ed.

Capri found another fire lizard to play with, but they really confused each other. It turned out that's because Zanzibar, the other fire lizard, belongs to X. Or a future alternate of him.

There might be a way to help with Zero. There's an anti-virus in his time, but it only weakens the virus and it doesn't always work, and it could be dangerous if it's already infected his core programming. But it also might let him fight it off.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:44:52 GMT

So much has happened that I don't even know where to begin. Maybe I'll sort it out enough to say more about it later.

I met a strange man in the Hub. I'm not entirely sure what to think about that, but at least he seemed nice. And someone wanted a piece of Capri's shell to try to make some sort of potion for Shido.

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 21:32:54 GMT

Jen asked if she could borrow the Pern books, so I took them to the Hub with me. I saw Orpheus again. I'd been so worried, since I hadn't seen him for months.

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 01:01:39 GMT

It hatched!!

OMG! Fire Lizard! SQUEEEE!!!

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 17:58:48 GMT

I can't believe it! An actual Pernese fire lizard egg!
It shoud hatch around the tenth, I have it in a bowl of sand in the toaster oven, and I put a padlock on there in case Dad gets confused. I don't want him trying to eat my little bronze hatchling for breakfast!

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 07:45:31 GMT

We had some unusual company, maybe even more unusual because of why they visited us. Shadow sent them so that Lyra could be repaired. Shadow.

A year ago, I'd have never believed that.

Sat, 20 May 2006 07:31:22 GMT

I have to find Rock. I met his alternate again and he said this is really bad and Rock needs help. They both do. Rock and Mega. So far I haven't seen him, though I keep going back to the Nexus.

His alternate said something else, too. About Zero. That Wily's going to do something to Zero and when he does...

I have a very bad feeling about this.

Wed, 17 May 2006 06:37:02 GMT

Rock's gone. He packed some of his things, left a note, and he's just gone.

I haven't panicked and ran to the Nexus to search for him. I don't want to do the same thing he did when I left for a while. He's an adult, really...

But he's also having problems. Problems that other Rock said he'd have to sort out for himself. Maybe that's why he had to leave. I hope he's ok.

I've been going to the Nexus, just in case. If he's there.

Sun, 07 May 2006 13:38:20 GMT

I don't know what to do about this. I think I'll go bake something. Maybe then I'll be able to think about it.

Fri, 05 May 2006 17:31:23 GMT

I met Crystal and Plant in the Hub. I think they were the ones from Air's universe. I guess what Quint said at Shido's is still bothering me. I don't like the idea of snooping through Rock's stuff, but maybe this time I should, just to prove to myself that there's nothing wrong.

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 08:08:03 GMT

The more I think about it, the dress really wasn't that bad, especailly with some dark-colored tights. I guess I was just overreacting.

It was nice to have some kind of pleasant diversion after some of what's happened. It's nice to see Achilles again, but the situation with that horrible other Windman? Just thinking about it makes me shiver.

At least that seems to have turned out mostly for the best, I think. And there were these adorable children in the Hub when I went back.

And, after a lot of badgering, Rock agreed to let me take Eddie with me instead of Rush when I visit the Nexus or the Hub. So maybe he'll get to spend some time with Air's little metool again.

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 16:25:25 GMT

Alternate-Windman. Total asshole.

I really miss Achilles right now. Snark was always more fun when we could 'trap' someone between us. It was usually poor Rock.

Maybe someday...

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 16:39:25 GMT

I just know I'll have nightmares now. Why did either of us ever mention things like that?

Except for that, though, he was nice to talk to. Maybe I should try talking to some of the others. And I know Rock's going to pitch a fit when he finds out about that...

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 01:27:48 GMT

Oh God, what a mess.

Wily botched something up when he finished programming Time and Oil. Time, thank heaven, doesn't have to obey Wily. But Oil... he's not right. He's unstable.

He attacked Time, and tried to attack me when I noticed it was his weapon that had caused the damage.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 17:18:33 GMT

I saw one of Rock's alternates again. I think he's a bit stressed. I hope he feels better soon.

My Rock hasn't bothered me again about going to the Nexus. There were a couple of times he almost said something, but he stopped himself. And... the way he looked, I'm not sure what he was going to say was another criticism. I think maybe, just maybe, he's starting to wonder if what we did was wrong.

There have been a few more raids. All just minor incidents. Not even a lot of property damage, and I can't find a pattern or plan to them.

It's strange, really. Usually if Wily finishes a new Robot Master, he sends them after Rock right away. Or starts another 'rebellion'. There's definately something different this time. It's like he's actually giving this one time to practice for some reason.

Or is he working on something else?

I don't like this at all.

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 20:43:15 GMT

The American Mega is dead. Pitch is going to have to fight. I don't think that's quite sunk in all the way. I can't quite really believe it yet.

I saw Time to give him his present, and I saw Oilman later very briefly but didn't get a chance to talk to him. I still haven't seen Orpheus, but it makes sense he'd spend the holidays with his foster family.

I had an argument with Rock over New Years. He mentioned seeing Forte in the Nexus, injured, and suggested finding a way to help him. And I guess I blew my top a bit and snapped at him for wanting to help Forte when he won't even talk to his own brothers. And things just became worse from there.

He knows why I've been spending so much time in the Nexus, now, and yelled something about locking me up to 'keep me safe', before he stormed off to the place. I'm not sure of all of what was said to him, although two people suggested handcuffs.

I wish I knew what else was said, because he went straight to his room and hasn't been out for a while.

I think I'm going to go bake something.

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 20:40:10 GMT

I'm home again. There was a raid while I was gone, and another one since I've been back. There was a new Wilybot involved in the last one. From what little information I have, he doesn't seem to be a 'normal' Robot Master. No *-man name, no gimmicky and silly looking weapon. He seems to have replaced Forte.

Rock, well, he's acting like I'd expect since there's been some trouble. He hasn't mentioned my trips to the Nexus. Or anything about what Mega might have said to him. Until things settle and we know whether or not this new Wilybot is going to be part of the start of another 'rebellion', he'll be more 'Mega' than 'Rock', even out of his armor. I wonder if he was when he talked to the American Mega.

I saw Elec in the Nexus, but I haven't seen Ice or Time since before the holidays. I hope they're all right.

Pitch was given armor and a buster for the holidays. I'm not sure what to think of that. There have been a lot of times I wish I had armor and weapons so I could defend myself, and yet - I don't want to have to fight. Especially not now.

I would say that I don't know how Rock does it. Except that I do know. Rock doesn't.

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 12:12:36 GMT

I tried to spend part of the holidays at home, and part in the Nexus, so that I could see my younger brothers. Before I left, Pitch gave me some art supplies and I gave him his present.

I talked to Kalinka about some things, and I think it's time for me to go home. It's not really helping things to stay away, and if something happens they'll need me. ~~And I hate to think of how much of a mess they've made of the house.~~

There was also wierd alternate of Dad in the Nexus who acted like.. well, I'm not going to think about that. His universe's Blues was there too.

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 07:02:54 GMT

I saw the younger Kalinka in the Nexus. She said Quint's been saying something about Wily dying. Now that would be good news, but something about it had Kalinka worried. And maybe there's a reason. Would it be a violation of the version of First Law my brothers have if Wily just died? He is old...

And if they locked up, and they were found, they'd be destroyed.

No. I won't let that happen. If I have to, I'll go rescue them, like Pitch did for his world's Protoman.

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 17:45:02 GMT

Pitch made pancakes. He really only almost made a couple little mistakes, and nothing too hard to point out, even if the rest of the conversation was disturbing.

Mega - the taller one from Pitch's world - wants to talk to Rock. I'm not sure if that will make things better or worse, but they're right. Something has to change or we're just putting off the inevitable.

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 20:50:10 GMT

Well. I did it. I left.

I'm staying in an alternate universe, with Pitch and another Dr. Light, and I'm going to help Pitch learn how to cook.

Right now, I don't know if this makes things better or worse. It's the holidays, I'm not at home, and I keep thinking I should be fixing breakfast now and that Rock would have to have seen the note I left. Or he's tracked mud and snow into the kitchen again. The thought of the house ending up looking like a disaster area while I'm here just horrifies me.

But if I let that stress me out, how am I going to figure out the rest of the problem? I just want to find a way to spend time with my family. All of them. Without anyone ending up hurt.

This is one mess I'm not sure I know how to fix, and there have been a few moments when I wanted to just bolt back home and pretend everything's 'normal'.

When I'm like that, I just look over at the dresser. There's an alarm clock there. Timeman made it for me, as a present. And there's a photo in a frame, one I've kept for years, from before First Rebellion. A photo with my younger brothers, Rock, and myself.

As confusing as this is for me, I can't give up until I find an answer. I owe them that.

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 20:32:37 GMT

Well, I was told to sort out my perspective before I decided on a course of action, so I'll try to do that first. Even though I'm pretty sure what I'm going to do, as soon as Dad's awake.

First Rebellion. I don't like to think of this much, in the wake of what Timeman almost did, but if I could go back in time, I'd find something heavy to hit my past self in the head with, because I must have had a few chips loose.

They had to obey Wily. They didn't have a choice. And even when they were back with us, we treated them as if they were still his. Why? So it would hurt less when they were taken away from us again?

It seems a stupid excuse now. Pitch was right about that. We killed them, at least in our minds. And blamed Wily for it. Not that he doesn't deserve being blamed for all that he's caused.

But maybe if we hadn't acted like that things would have been different. What if the way we acted affected the decision to have them destroyed? There's no way to know that now, unless there's a universe out there somewhere where we didn't screw up like immature brats.

And then there's Time. I can understand Dad not telling us about Blues. He thought Blues had been destroyed, so it was a sensitive topic. But Time wasn't mentioned at all, even before First Rebellion. Or during it, when it might have been a good idea to tell us there was potentially another Robot Master that Rock might have had to fight if Wily had finished him then.

Instead, well... out of sight and out of mind. Forgotten. And not just by Dad, but by Dr. Wily too. Like he didn't matter at all. And considering why he was made, I wonder if he ever mattered to them.

I wonder if any of the others did. Even if he really does care about me and Rock... did he ever care about them? They were prototypes for industrial designs, except for Time, meant to be mass produced and sold to companies.
But we're robots. That's what we're for.

I never stopped to think about that, especially since it didn't happen. I mean, it's not wrong to mass-produce metools. They're everywhere.

But mets don't have that much of a mind, really. They're not people. And that's part of the 'problem' again. I've thought of myself as a person for so long that sometimes I forget that, as far as the law is concerned, I'm not. Legally, I'm property. A fancy device designed to clean house and cook meals.

Dad's never treated me that way. At least, I don't think he has. But I wonder what I have to compare that to. I do know that he didn't treat the others the same as he did me, or Rock. We had rooms in the house, they were supposed to stay in the lab. Not that it was always like that

When I think of what it would actually be like to see hundreds of copies of them, working all around the world, in whatever situations humans couldn't or didn't want to handle...

And not just them. What if he decided Rock and I were 'useful' enough to 'share' as well? Hundreds of copies of 'Rock' helping out with repairs or as lab assistants, like he was originally designed for. Hundreds of 'me's, all over the world, washing dishes and cleaning house and fixing meals...

It looks like slavery. Even if, legally, it's not seen that way.

Dad and Dr. Wily tried to create a race of slaves. And Dr. Wily... well, he went on to succeed at that part of it, didn't he.

I feel sick just thinking about it.

I have to talk to Dad. And if the answers don't help, or make things worse, I don't think I can stay here any more.

"Because I like watches." If he says that, he'd better hope he can follow TV Dinner instructions.

(As a note, the actual time order of the threads is: 1, 2, 2b, 3, 4)

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 11:10:17 GMT

[GJ Retcon Edit: Stuff with Patience is scratched, so overlook the striked out text below]

I went to the Nexus Mall ~~with Patience~~. We saw Ice and Elec with a little girl I thought was a hostage. But she's not. She's Ice's - Orpheus's - foster sister.

I feel so confused. I couldn't run and leave the girl while I thought she was a hostage, and after that Elec had said some other things and...

He was right. They weren't the only ones different after the First Rebellion. We all were. Rock most of all, really.

But they were the ones we pushed away. It was easier to think they were dead than to think that they could have done those things. I wonder if part of it was because of what came later. I think we suspected what was coming almost from the start. It's not as if we have any legal rights. Maybe we just didn't want to remember our brothers as the 'Sinister Six'.

And now I wonder if we made a horrible mistake.

No. I'm not wondering that really. I know we did.

I have to go. I have to try to talk to them. I'm not sure how. That woman said the CPS left a phone number with Dr. Light. Maybe...

I don't even know if he'll want to talk to me.